by Dennis Hensley
Detour first asked me if I wanted to interview Sandra Bullock, my
response was something along the lines of, "Sure, who's Sandra
Bullock?" Of course, that was three years ago.
was January of 1993 and Bullock was doing her first-ever magazine interviews to
promote two films that you probably didn't see; The Vanishing and The
Thing Called Love. She met me
in the pouring rain at a coffee house on Beverly Boulevard in L.A. The
adjectives that Hollywood types throw around to describe her appeal--and are
currently trying to clone; accessible, easygoing, girl next door, et al--were
pretty hard to miss, even under a baggie sweater and blue jeans. She also
demonstrated a refreshing ability to poke fun at herself. It's not everyday you
meet an actor who will admit to repeated viewings of Xanadu and marvel
with embarrassment that her publicist was able to cobble together a four page
bio out of a handful of little-seen films (Love Potion #9, Wrestling Ernest
Hemingway) and a failed TV series (Working Girl).
Sandra Bullock's bio is still four pages, it's just packed a lot tighter. Not
long after we met, she was cast opposite Sylvester Stallone and Taco Bell in the
futuristic shoot-em-up Demolition Man. It was her next film, Speed,
that bumped Bullock up to the A-list, proving that she can wear one outfit for
an entire whole movie and still keep us rooting for her. 1995 gave the actress
the chance to prove she could open a movie on her own. So she did, twice. While
You Were Sleeping was the year's warmest and fuzziest hit and The Net,
well, it gave her a chance to show off those mouse skills.
is taking a step back in '96, starring opposite Denis Leary in Two if By Sea,
which she describes as "edgy, offbeat, small film." Following that,
she'll pop up in a supporting role in Joel Schumacher's adaptation of the John
Grisham novel, A Time To Kill.
flown to Jackson, Mississippi, where A Time to Kill is finishing
production. Just before I left L.A., I read that Bullock was going to get over
$10 million to star in Richard Attenborough's In Love and War. In three
short years, she's gone from the girl nobody could quite place to the girl
everybody wants. What I'm wondering, as I wait for her to arrive at my $50 a
night hotel room, is if Sandra Bullock can still laugh at things like Xanadu
and the Osmonds CD I brought as a gift. More importantly, can the $10 million
girl still laugh at herself? I'm about to find out.
HENSLEY: I brought you an Osmonds Greatest Hits CD. 25 hits on one disc.
BULLOCK: Look at the teeth on these guys. It's all teeth.
sweat it. I got it for free.
is the best. Anything free is good.
must get tons of stuff for free.
time I open my mouth and say I like something, it shows up at the door. Once I
said that I like the Principal Secret, from Victoria Principal's infomercial. A
month later, the entire kit was on my doorstep.
you suppose she dropped it off herself?
might have, but she would probably have wanted to come and give me a facial. I
want to show you something. Look at the way I'm dressed. Does it take you back
come on. The first interview we ever had, I wore the same exact thing. I
couldn't find the original sweater, but this was close and the jeans.
me about your new film, Two if By Sea.
just saw it and I was shocked. I don't know whether I was pleased or
embarrassed, but I totally veered away from what is comfortable to me. I play a
cashier from New Jersey who's been in a relationship for seven years and wants
more. Her boyfriend, Denis Leary, is a no-good art thief and she's going on this
last job to make sure he doesn't screw it up. I really wanted to go into
uncharted waters and do things that nobody would expect me to do, probably no
one would want to see me do, but let's see what happens. I really wanted to work
with Denis because comedically, he makes me better. He sets you up and you find
yourself with a rebuttal that you didn't even know was in your head.
known Denis for a while, right?
Demolition Man. We were the only one's not working all the time so he'd
smoke 20,000 cigarettes and drink 20 gallons of Coke, while I'd eat jars of
there's Joel Schumacher's A Time to Kill. You play a supporting role,
It was a good lesson for me in how to step back and listen rather than having
the luxury of the joke or the pratfall or falling down the stairs at the teen
pageant, which is easy for me to do.
Roark. She's really smart and edgy and very sexual. She can hang with the boys,
pat them on the butt if they pat her, that type of thing.
you do a little butt patting?
do a little butt watching. I look at Matthew McConnaghay's naked butt.
a newcomer. How's the tush?
funny is I couldn't bring myself to look at it. I just saw the side as I lifted
up the shirt, but then I kind of walked on. I didn't have a minute to like
concentrate on the...
he's really fit. Baby got back. He's really going to take off after this. It's
nice to be in a film where everybody's better than me. I sit there and I go,
"What can you learn?" The
cast is like Samuel Jackson, Kevin Spacey, Brenda Fricker, Oliver Platt, both
Sutherlands, Charles Dutton. The list goes on and on. This film also has a great
message in it. I think for once, in a very long time, we're putting out a film
that addresses issues that are on everyone's minds. This film is about black and
white, it's about justice and it's about family. We're in this small town of
Canton, Mississippi and the film has brought together people who could have
lived right next door who have never ever spoken because it was a black/white
issue and to see these people coming together in the town square and relating,
you would just want to cry.
do you remember observing about the way different races related when you were
wasn't raised thinking somebody was black or white. My best friend in school was
a black guy and it didn't even register until like five years ago that there
should have been an issue there and it never was. He's just the best friend I've
this is a Joel Schumacher film you know you're going to look incredible.
is the first time that anybody has taken a great deal of concern in how I look.
I went through at least 100 pairs of jeans to find the perfect ones.
have to maximize that ass.
Joel says, "We want it to look an apple." He's so great. He embraces
actors. Every idiosyncrasy that a person has, he loves it. He
brings out things in you that you're sort of unsure about.
my sexuality on my sleeve and being proud of it. In other films, if you notice,
there's nothing like a big old sweater, or a clunky pair of boots or your hair
in your face to make me feel okay. In this I wear tight jeans, tank tops, bare
arms. He took away every crutch that I had.
next year you're going to film Sir Richard Attenborough's In Love and War.
How did that come about?
watched my work and said, 'This is something that somebody needs to pull out of
her' and I love that because I've done all my tricks and I'm tired of myself. I
don't want anybody to say, "You do what you're good at." Huh-uh. I've
done it. I want somebody to say, "No, you are going to do this."
he going to be your first Sir?
a Lord. He was upgraded.
you have to call him 'Lord?'
going to call him Dickey. "Dickey, come here." He's very informal.
going to play the nurse who has a love affair with Ernest Hemingway played by
Chris O'Donnell. Any chance you can convince him to do a few scenes in the Robin
costume just for kicks?
Schumacher had a funny story about that. He truly believes that Chris paid off
the costume department because his...um...
so much more, shall we say, powerful than the Batman one. That's
something I didn't notice, oddly enough, when I saw it.
were too mesmerized by that Bat-ass.
said they didn't want to put that one close-up in there but when I saw it I
screamed. I was on a plane and I was like, "Aaaah!"
read where Attenborough said that this will be the first time you get to play
your own age. What do you think of that?
good. I've done the quirky, happy go lucky goofball which I am to a certain
degree but there's a whole other side of just being a woman.
read that you're getting over $10 million for this film. Do you find it odd that
your salary is printed in the newspaper?
find it hysterical. When I decide to do a film I tell the business people not to
tell me what the money is. Period. I say, "Come back at the end and tell
what you guys have worked out and we'll see what we can do." It just
happens to be right now that that is such a statement for not only where you are
in your career, but it seems to be something that people take a great interest
in in representing women and saying, "It's about time." That's a nice
quality of the money. The other great quality is that I immediately hand it over
to my father and say, "You're in charge of this," and I can make my
small films and not think twice about it. You can secure your family for the
rest of their lives. I don't think twice about saying, "I'm going to buy my
parents a car," or "I'm taking my best friends to Hawaii for two
what I've gathered, you seem to assume the cruise director role in your circle
but I like it. I panic when I can't be the perfect hostess.
you ever think, "If I stopped planning everything..."
will be around. Totally.
it hard at this point to trust the new people you meet?
trust everyone until they give me a reason not to. I'm still cautious. I don't
get my diary and go, "Here."
some X-rays I've just had done."
want you to see how my prostate's looking this week." That's the hardest
thing about this. All of the sudden your life changes. You're still doing the
same things, your friends are still doing the same things but the people around
you sort of do different things. You find out about people's intentions pretty
quickly. I can blend in everywhere, but to have somebody close in your life you
want them to be kind people, hard working, loyal friends.
qualities can you not deal with?
can't deal with people who taint all the goodness around them to make the
goodness feel as rotten as they do - because I was there. Two years ago I was
the victim, you know, "Nothing works for me, everyone is against me,"
and then you look at yourself and go, "I'm the problem." It's so
simple what I like. I like people who know what they want out of life, whether
they want to be a shoelace maker, I don't care, just have passion and I'll go
along with you.
understand you've started your own production company. What's it called?
Films. It means strength, perseverance. I'd given this woman that I work with
this ring two years ago that said, "Fortis" on it because she was
going through hard times and the day that I was trying to figure out the name,
she goes what about this? (flips a bird) and I was like, "That's it."
hear you're producing short films.
We made a 20 minute one called The Mailman and it got into Sundance. The
next one's called Making Sandwiches about a couple who run a sandwich
shop. This is something that I wrote while my mom was sick. I was sleeping where
she was in the hospital and for two days I just wrote it. I can't wait to make
know you've made it when Barbara Walters wants to talk to you. Late last year,
Sandra Bullock welcomed Walters to her rented Mississippi home for a heart to
heart and some fishing. Aside from discussing Bullock's break up with actor Tate
Donovan, about the most scandalous tidbit Walters could come up with was that
Bullock had lied about her age. "I lied two years ago to get this part in Love
Potion #9," Bullock told me in '93. "They said, "We want an
older scientist." I go there and I say I'm 29. After a while, you have no
idea how old you are because you've lied so many times. I always said I would
never lie, but one time, when I didn't it worked against me. So I figure you
just keep them guessing."
was it like fishing with Barbara Walters? I really wanted you to push her in the
lake just for laughs.
sat there for so long trying to catch fish. I couldn't believe I was in the
chair talking to Barbara Walters and it's like, 'What am I going to cry about? I
have nothing to cry about.'
she starts kicking you under the camera.
cry, cry." I wanted to interview her because she's such an icon and
everyone's heard everything I have to say. Right now, there's nothing. Push,
pull, pinch, there's nothing.
all these new films coming out, do you worry about being overexposed?
I need to lay low for a while. People are really going to get sick of me. That's
why I chose A Time to Kill, because I'm not the center of attention in it
but I still get to work. That's the bummer about it. In order to lay low, you
have to stop working and I don't want to do that.
must be a hard pull when you're finally getting the great scripts.
want to do them all.
there things you can't do anymore given your high profile?
can't pick my nose in the car anymore. (Laughs) I cannot leave the house looking
too much like a scum queen. I love to go dancing and I don't think, "Oh,
this is forbidden" when you grind with a guy. It's all about dancing for
me. That's hard because whoever's with me gets pegged as the new husband.
you could be anonymous for one day...
go in my back yard in my underwear and know nobody gave a crap, not going,
'There's somebody watching me.'
you feel that people are watching you now?
know people are watching. My neighbors watch. They sold out this wedding that I
had for my friends Mark and Joel and I felt bad because it was such a beautiful,
romantic ceremony. I did a reading from Dr. Suess's "Oh The Places You Will
Go." The great thing about it is that it doesn't say everything's going to
be great; some thing's are going to be bad, some people are going to say bad
things, but you stick with your choices and know that we're here for you. Then I
added my own little rhyme to say how I felt and everyone was watching me saying,
"She's going down, she's going down."
she's going to start crying?
which I did. They said, nobody could understand the last two sentences.
the sudden subtitles appear in front of you.
That's what happened. So I hope they didn't feel like it was ruined by the
press. What was great about is that
it sent out a really good message but thank God I wasn't in my underwear.
the worst thing you ever read about yourself?
ex-girlfriend of somebody I was seeing sold a story and said that he had said
that I wouldn't make a good mother and that I was a phony and that I made him
cringe. Out of all the things that were said - that apparently there was an
affair going on - I could have cared less. It was the two lines where somebody
had said that I wouldn't make a good mother and that's something that I always
knew that I would be great at. Kids are the most important thing to me in my
life. The reason I haven't had them yet is because I care for them too much to
throw them into something that I can't protect them from. It really hurt my
feelings that somebody could lie and say that and I knew it was a lie because
something like that would never have come out of this person's mouth. It just
shocked me so much that somebody could rock me to the very thing that means the
most to me and I've never even met the person. The things that have happened to
me this year bring out some ugly qualities in people that I can't possibly
understand, but I'm a true believer in karma. You get what you give whether it's
bad or good.
just saw David Schwimmer's high school production of Anything Goes on
Extra. Has any old stuff of yours started popping up?
my Jurassic Park audition is showing up. How mortifying. I've got a lot
of bad work out there but if it wasn't for that work I wouldn't be sitting here.
I would have known how to hit a mark or find my light. I'd be sitting in the
dark fifty feet off my mark.
been with all your original handlers for years. Have you been courted by bigger
little bit but they know how strongly I feel about the people that I'm with and
obviously these people are doing a great job. Why would I want to leave?
when people get to a certain level of fame you see them do something insane and
you wonder if they have anyone around them who will be blatantly honest.
know. I think I have that and then I'm like, but do I really? My
parents and my sister are brutally honest. I think I have a good group of people
around me. I've made mistakes and I know why made them but I made that choice.
Nobody's ever made a choice for me. I was lucky because it happened to me later.
If I had been eighteen, it would have completely destroyed me. I was immature.
I'm still immature but now I know what kind of immature I am and I can snap out
of that and be an adult when I have to be.
of maturity, we've never discussed you cheerleading career. What stunt was your
handsprings and aerials because I was a gymnast. I basically became a
cheerleader so I could see my boyfriend because I had a very strict mom who
didn't want me to see him. That was my way of being a bad girl.
if you don't let me see him, I'm going to cheer and cheer and cheer."
was the worst thing because my dad was a voice teacher and I was going to ruin
my voice so I had to learn to cheer from the diaphragm. I sounded like a truck
was your favorite cheer?
and Ten, Do It Again because I had no idea what first and ten was and I didn't
have the balls to ask.
haven't we seen your acrobatic ability in a movie? I mean, would it have killed
you to do a cartwheel in While You Were Sleeping?
see if I can work that into the Attenborough film. All the sudden in the
can you go and get that I.V.?"
I'll do a flip and then act as though nothing happened.
something that you became a celebrity too late to enjoy that you would have
loved, like doing The Muppet Show for example?
doing The Muppet Show again! I'm going on it! I love The Muppet Show
so much I cannot even tell you.
there's your cartwheel.
might be right, but their stage is so small.
do you want your scene partner to be?
I love Kermit.
something that you've been offered that you would love to do, but it would
probably be a tacky career move?
got a call to go to Berlin and be the host of The Face of the 90's
pageant. I wanted to do it just for the cheese factor, just to see the girls
backstage and how panicked they were because I was a contestant in the Flue
Cured Tobacco Queen Festival, don't you know.
I didn't know. I can't believe you've been holding that back.
needed money for school. I had this drag queen from school put me in this Bob
Mackie gown and pile my hair up high. He taught me how to walk and he was
backstage going, "Stop clunking!" Of course, the tobacco company
owner's daughter won.
you a Runner-Up?
wasn't even that. I did a really good talent, though, a spicy little jazz
number. That's what's going to show up on video.
next morning, Sandra picks me up to go to breakfast. As she barrels onto the
highway in her black Jeep, I realize I'm riding shotgun with one of the most
unforgettable drivers in screen history and recall how when I asked Sandra back
in '93 if she ever read her own reviews. Her response: "Yeah. My first
review for the TV movie The Bionic Showdown said I was "as
interesting as a bus ride." Perhaps Speed was her way of replying.
"Yeah. I've got your exciting bus ride right here."
Speed make you a more aggressive driver?
always been an aggressive driver.
there going to be a sequel?
talking about it. If they can't come up with something that is just as thrilling
and clever as the first one, there's no sense in it. Jan Depont, Keanu and I -
even contractually - are saying, we won't do it without the others.
think for the sequel you and Keanu should have to clean up the mess you made.
hysterical. We're on the clean up crew for the city. We get the orange suits.
I'll bring that up at the next meeting.
they doing a "For Your Consideration" Oscar campaign for you for While
You Were Sleeping?
they called and said, "We'd like to do this," and I said, "That's
your thing. Have a great time but just know that I'm not saying this is what I
want at all."
not like, "Don't use that picture of me. Use this one."
I could care less. Oscars are supposed to be given once you've had a large body
of work and you're like sixty.
been the most glamorous night of your life?
most unbelievable night that I've ever had was coupled up with one of the most
stressful. The premier for The Net was the same night as my birthday. The
first mistake of that night we call the Pink Walrus Episode because I put on
some weight in doing Two If By Sea and then I poured myself into this
pink Calvin Klein dress that was so tight I was bulging out from every seam.
you make the Star's 'Would you be caught dead in this' column?
wasn't, 'Would you be caught?' it was, 'What was she thinking?' Then after the
premiere, I had friends meeting me and we we're going to have a casual dinner.
And I get there and my girlfriend, Shannon, had decorated and everybody was
there. I didn't expect it. Then all the sudden you hear this chanting from a
jazz bar in the next room and I walked in and there in front of me was Melissa
Etheridge wailing this blues rendition of "Happy Birthday Sandy" that
would just stop your heart. I couldn't stop smiling. Here I was, the big beaming
pink walrus with this big cake with candles illuminating my shining pinkness and
it was the greatest greatest greatest night of my life because I was the belle
of the ball. I was the queen for a minute. I get goose bumps thinking about it.
August of 1995, Sandra was on the cover of People Magazine with the headline,
"Hot! Hot! Hot!" At our
first meeting, Sandra told me how excited her parents and sister were when she
appeared in a tiny picture in the back pages of the magazine. "I haven't
been able to warrant a cover," she laughed in '93. When I suggested
revealing some childhood trauma might improve her chances, she claimed she
really didn't have one, "except for the sixth grade boyfriend who dicked me
over for the girl with bigger breasts."
While You Were Sleeping, did you make up with that line where you say you
have a flat chest just like your father?
I've been making it up since I developed. (Director) John Turtletaub knew that I
made jokes about it all the time and it was his idea to incorporate it. I wasn't
sure how people would react to it and now I'm getting all these letters from
people saying, "Don't worry about your breasts. I like your breasts.
They're perfect." It seems like every tenth letter I open up is about my
breasts. I'm the poster child for breasts.
you ever for one second considered implants?
That's what the Wonderbra is for. I had a roommate that had it done and three
times, her body rejected it. I have nothing against people doing things to make
themselves feel better but my fear lies in what if something goes wrong and it
slides down to your hips. Then you're dealing with liposuction. I feel really
good in my body and that's something that I had to teach myself, to become
really comfortable in my own skin.
you could slip into a man's skin for one day, what would you like to experience?
like to see me from the outside, from the male point of view because I always
fear that it's hard for a guy to be with me. I'm probably every man's worse
nightmare because I will not listen. I just do my own thing. Would I look at me
and go, "Oh she's a hot little number," or, "She'd be a great
sister to have?"
did you learn the facts of life?
mom gave me book with cartoon figures called "Where I Came From." I
was very aware of the human body at a young age. I could have ended up being a
really wild child. I loved boys and kissing and all that since I was a baby but
I always knew that I would never dabble in the cesspool until a certain time.
something unconventional that you find really sexy in a man?
something sexy about a man's gut. I'm not talking a 400 pound beer gut that
makes him tip over but I'm talking a little paunch. I love that because it just
makes it okay for me to have a paunch if I should ever acquire one.
arrive at the Cracker Barrel, one of Jackson's down homiest breakfast spots.
Once we're seated, a couple at the next table compliment Sandra on While You
Were Sleeping and ask for an autograph. The three of them talk for a minute
or so, about what, I don't know, because I don't speak German. It was one of the
few times of late, Bullock has gotten to use the language she picked up from her
German opera singer mother and a childhood spent traveling around Europe.
you fly them in from Berlin just to you could show off your bilingualism?
you invested in an autograph stamp?
I've signed every one of mine. I don't want a stamp. If it takes me three years
to sign, I'll take three years to sign.
place is so Martha Stewart with the handicrafts.
year, my sister goes, "We need a wreath" so we got the Martha Stewart
magazine and it had one of those Styrofoam rings that you stick frozen
cranberries in with toothpicks. So we were sticking them in and they don't quite
hold as well as you'd like so we were wondering what Martha might have done
differently. I would have guessed, dipped the toothpick in glue, but my sister
says, "Nah." So it turns out gorgeous and we hung it on the front door
and every time we would come back home there was like 50,000 cranberries on the
have a hunch that Martha holds back one secret step just to maintain her
the thing is you don't see that Martha has a staff of 50 helping her.
adorable colonial guesthouse is really sweatshop full of cheap immigrant labor.
But she's great though. She teaches
you how to do stuff.
you ever do any commercials?
but I walked out of a Head and Shoulders audition. I'm glad to say that I was
able to get where I got without doing a feminine hygiene commercial.
our '93 meeting there was something about Bullock that reminded me of Julia
Roberts. When I asked her if she'd ever been compared to the Pretty Woman,
she looked at me like I had three heads. "That's a great compliment,"
she said, "but no. I get Justine Bateman a lot." These days Bullock
and Roberts are often mentioned in the same breath.
you ever met Julia Roberts?
but it's so funny, all these references about competition. Why is there plenty
of room for guys in this business and they don't pit them up against each other?
It's so stupid. There's room for everybody. I think Julia and I should do a film
where we make fun of this whole thing, like we're not even the leads. They just
have an outtake of like a movie premiere where we get into a huge fight or
something. That would be hysterical.
anyone ever come up and said that they were a fan that surprised you?
other actors come up and say, 'I like your work' it floors me. It makes me feel
so good. Like Ashley Judd came up and said, "I really liked what you did in
scene was it?
was from The Net where I was the phone with my mom. I said 'This is a one
shot deal because I'm pulling out something that I don't want to pull out
again.' It made me feel great that she noticed.
did a good deal of computer hacking in that film. In your own life, are you a
mouse or rolling ball kind of gal?
ball. Now they got that pad that I have to adjust to which is weird. What if you
have sticky fingers?
of sticky fingers, I know you're a Kentucky Fried Chicken enthusiast. If you
could meet Colonel Sanders...
cook him pasta, get him off that chicken thing. When I was like 12, I had a
chicken named Colonel Sanders and he was not a chicken chicken. He liked people.
He would stand on the top of your handlebars while you were riding your bike
through the neighborhood.
you were 10, your father was crushed by a bulldozer and was in the hospital for
a year. What was that year like for you?
remember having all these temper tantrums and crying a lot, and never taking
into consideration that he was sick. He was dad and he was supposed to be there.
I never once thought that he was going to die because my dad is invincible. I
remember the night that we got the phone call and my mom breaking down and all
these family members coming and me and my sister were sitting outside on the
curb across from the house watching. It was dusk and there was this feeling that
there was something wrong and real sadness there and I just remember the car
taking off with my mom and I didn't want to say goodbye to her. Then everything
you ever a Girl Scout?
was a Brownie for a day, but my mom made me stop. She didn't want me to conform.
All I ever heard her say was "Be original," but when you're a kid
that's the last thing you want to be. I just wanted to blend in. Now, It's like
I totally got what she meant.
you go to your Prom?
Worst experience of my life.
thought the Working Girl TV series held that honor?
the prom was the worst dance experience of my life. My boyfriend and I
broke up two weeks before and I didn't fit in the dress that was made because I
put myself into an eating frenzy. He wouldn't let me dance with anybody and I
was home like two hours later.
you into the fraternity/sorority scene when you were in college?
was a little sister for the worst fraternity in the school that's now been
me a nightmare frat party story.
only have one. This guy that I really liked and I were drinking 'Shake Em Ups'
which is Thunderbird and grapefruit juice. I don't remember anything that
happened and apparently I was sick in front of him, on him, and beside him. He
had to drag me to my dorm room and I didn't hear from him for a week. I was
like, "This is just the worst" and then he called me and we dated
almost two years.
like that old saying, "If you love something, puke all over it...
it comes back, it's a good thing."
was your first boyfriend?
print his name but his initials are G.D. Red hair. Irish. I have a thing for red
haired Irish boys as we know.
referring to your ex-boyfriend Tate Donovan. Have you watched his Fox sitcom, Partners?
and he is so good. I was in the airport on a layover and I was watching the show
and I was trying to be really inconspicuous about it because I knew that
everyone knew I was sitting there and everyone knew the show was on.
the next thing you know, you're on Hard Copy as the melancholy ex.
but I had to watch the the whole show and everyone was talking and I was like,
"Sshhh!" But I couldn't
like go over there and watch.
we first met I had just been dumped and your advise was, "The only way to
get over someone is to meet someone else." Still true?
absolutely. I'm not saying go out and sleep with them. I'm just saying go out
and have a conversation and know that they find you attractive and go,
"Okay, I'm not the piece of trash that I thought I was two days ago."
Allow yourself a week or two to eat bonbons and be depressed but then make your
friends take you out. The worst parts of being dumped or breaking up is the
night time, going to sleep and wanting to fall asleep and wondering where they
are every second of the time.
the nanosecond you wake up, it's upon you again.
the greatest thing is when one day you wake up and you don't feel it and you
just go, "Aahh!"
you seeing someone now?
for about 10 months. Really sweet person. It's been rough because of all this
that happened plus he's working all the time and I rarely get to see him. But
for a year I was by myself trying to date and I'm telling you dating was the
worst experience I ever had. I seem to have attracted everyone whose intentions
were not the best.
people who's intentions were so not in tune morally with mine. They were nice
people but they just weren't suited for me and that's hard because I seriously
thought I'm never ever going to find anybody that will love me and just enjoy
don't seem like the kind of girl who goes for, I guess you could call them
trophy guys, like athletes or models or soap studs.
me, whoever I'm dating is a trophy guy, but I know what you mean. I was at a
point where I was like, "I'm not dating anyone who's like an actor"
and I generalized and it wasn't fair because I met some people that aren't that
the most outrageous thing you've ever done in pursuit of a crush?
really embarrassing. I've never chased anybody like I did this person and I'm
not saying who it is. I knew he was coming over, we were all going to eat and I
was like, "How can I make him think that other people might want me so he
might go, 'Maybe I should jump on it and stop stringing her along like the fool
she is'." So I went to the florist and ordered $185 worth of flower
arrangements, paid cash because I didn't want there to be any record of it and
signed them in different handwriting.
did you say they were from, Your Secret Admirer?
the guy ever find out?
and he's the kind of guy that goes to somebody's house he doesn't know and
starts reading their mail, just out of curiosity so whatever I had lying out,
you knew he would see. So I played on his nosiness. I left the room giving him
enough time to open them all. And you know what? It was worth every penny I
you get married, where are you going to register?
dropping me off, Sandra and I stop at Pier One imports where she buys a small
green table in the shape of a frog. "It'll be a toilet paper stand for the
office. Just stack 'em up there like a little pyramid so there's always a
Fortis Films..." I say setting her up.
care about your butt," she says proudly.
she methodically checks her table for balance, I decide Sandra Bullock is a
woman who can get just as worked up about a $40 frog table as a $10 million
opening weekend. Yes, this the same girl who confessed to me in '93 that she
turned in her drivers license to movie theater manager, so she could sneak in to
see herself in the trailer for Love Potion #9. "I can never enjoy
anything when it happens," she said at the time, when I asked why she
hadn't seen the whole movie. "It's always like two years later. I figure,
'If I enjoy this, I'm going to lose it'." Back
in the car, I remind her of this tendency.
you still not enjoy anything as it's happening?
gotten better at that. In terms of my success, no. It's just great work to me.
But what I do really enjoy now is every day. Every experience that I have. Every
time somebody tells me a story, I listen to it, I enjoy it. For so long, my
senses were really deadened. All the sudden everything's become really really
vibrant and I have three times more energy than I've ever had. So every once in
a while I'll look at my friends and stop and go, "This is good. Right now.
This is really good."
you ever been to a psychic?
but I threw this Halloween party for the crew here - we all went as the Village
People. I was the Indian.
you do "YMCA," "Macho Man" or a medley?
We were very sensual. Anyway, I rented a palm reader for the evening and she
takes my hand and says, "You have been a lot of men in your past lives and
this is the first time you have been a complete woman and you are still
struggling with wanting to run everything and those male qualities are still
coming over but your female side is not being taken care of."
you buy it?
don't know about the past lives but the thing about letting the female side be
taken care of is totally true. She also said something about there being a lot
of pain between two people who don't know and don't need to know.
you have some Shields and Yarnell baggage that you never let go.
very very very possible. I mean, everybody has it.
song do you know all the words of?
Delight." I know all the words and I insist on singing them. I want every
one to notice that I know all the words. It's very important.
important than an Oscar campaign?
your favorite song to dance to?
film it's been "Brown Sugar" by D'Angelo. You can slow grind to it.
Last film my favorite song was TLC, "Waterfalls." I made such a moron
out of myself at the MTV Movie Awards. TLC were doing press in one room and I
was in another and I had to go into their room and say something and here I am
the Amazon Woman 'cause they're so tiny.
you know which one's which?
You start with Lisa Lopez and then you go out from there.
it turn you on guy if a guy can dance?
and if he can't, as long as he's willing to try. I don't care if he's two feet
tall with no hair and ears like Dumbo, if he can move, he's a sexy man.
you think good on the dance floor equals good in the sack?
don't know. I've never met somebody, seen them dance, and then ended up dating
them. It's always been start dating and then you're begging, "Please go
dancing with me."
know you're into salsa dancing. Do you ever say no when someone asks you to
the salsa ring, you don't say no. Dancing's the one time that I'm like,
"Okay, you just be dominant." It's about finding somebody who's got
your rhythm and once you find it you just want time to stand still.
you ever danced in a movie?
but there's one movie that we're developing sort of about the Cuban dancing and
the rhythms of people.
you ever been in a music video?
I've always wanted to but I want it to be somebody I know like Keanu and his
band. I'd want to be like the sexy, but funny, object of desire.
Tawny Kittaen role.
do splits between the cars. Okay, I gotta do one thing. (She inserts Osmonds CD
I gave her last night into the stereo) Everyone has to sing along.
great thing about the Osmonds, is that if you don't like a song, it's usually
over in 2 minutes.
bounce through "Yo-Yo" and "One Bad Apple" then come upon an
obscure Hendrix-influenced track, called "Hold Her Tight.")
a lot hipper than I remember them being.
is the best. Barbara Walters didn't get Osmonds.
didn't. She didn't bring Osmonds either. See. You get what you give.